Why do i try so hard when i know it wont happen? Like it wasn't ment to be, even though i wanted it so bad. Why must i be so selfesh? I think abt what i want and don't even stop to think abt the other person involving I never thought abt what they want and what they want is not me on that place So why must i feel this way? may be it's just a waste of my life time. But i cant change my feelings. They have to heal with time. In the meanwhile i must sit back in silence while my heart silently cries out. I find complacency in temporary feelings which i know are not real. These feelings pass with time but are forever in my heart. I'm afraid to step forward again. But a friend gives me courage and reasures me. So i'll do. Do i hit the target this time? may be no. as i said before, it's just a waste of time and waste of heart hard work. once again. i"m proud of being me. i'm the one , i ain't gonna lose something. there's so much more chances, in other time. should i wait ? but they did something, they won't regret for doing it.